Ever Been So Confused That You’re Calm
July 12, 2018
Being 22 is so stoopid and at the same time, hilarious.
What am I supposed to do if I'm not in the zone where I'm supposed to be:
Get married?
Travel the world?
Go to grad school?
Write a book?
Well, I’ll be sitting here miserably making Spotify playlists until I'm told what to do.
Oh, speaking about Spotify, here's some of my playlist if someone decided to care:
I feel like my existance in this earth tuh kayak ngambang aja, itu yang gue rasakan akhir-akhir ini. I don't really have a talent nor do I have any purpose of life and I don't really like some particular thing to brag as my passion either. I'm just really THERE existing on earth, tbh.
Bingung sama hidup. Mau nikah aja aaaaaaaaaah.
Tapi nikah gimana ya, wong mancing belom mau.
Know there’s plenty of fish in the sea but you know what else there is?
Trash.
There is a lot of trash in the sea.
There is a lot of trash in the sea.
Semakin dewasa pada nyadar ga sih cita cita jaman kecil udah pudar dan bingung mau jadi apa dan ngapain lagi? We’re too busy to make money and pay the bills. So, lucky you if you do things that you love for a living. REALLY.
You must've heard someone said that life would be less unnerving if we could stop for a minute and think about at least one thing in our lives that we don’t have to worry so much about instead of addressing our worries all the time.
You don’t have to worry about money? Great!
You don’t have to worry so much about your health? Awesome!
You don’t have to worry about your job? Cool!
You don’t have to worry about your relationship with your parents? Blessed!
You don’t have to worry about your friendship? Good!
You don’t have to worry about getting enough sleep? Wonderful!
You don’t have to worry about being judged by your peers about your fetishes? Fun!
There are a zillion things we worry about every day and if we could think of that one thing we don’t have to worry about so much, we’ll be more grateful.
Jadi nggak perlu buru-buru ke kantor polisi mengurus surat kehilangan motivasi yaaa (speak for yourself dah, Ndy wkwk).
In the meantime of figuring things out what to do and what not, baby steps, cengengesan, surrounding self with people who loves and gives support while life get in the way dan memperumit semuanya; I'll be just keep being unfaedah yet productive.
Terdengar menyedihkan memang. Tapi twitter, film, musik dan buku sejauh ini jadi obat paling manjur untuk menghapus rasa jumud dan hampa dalam hidup. Sebuah praktek paganisme kontemporer sekaligus sarana eskapisme membahagiakan kalau sedang payah dalam berhubungan dengan orang lain ((WELLLLLLLLLL, it didn't work out because interspecies relationships are hard where everyone else was a human, whereas the other was a demonic hell-beast)) (again, speak for yourself, Ndy).
✨✨ HAVE A GOOD DAY, SPARKLES!! ✨✨
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